silence

you asked me for silence
and silent i'll be
so why would you call
just to irritate me?
you loved me and left me
we are finished and through
so what gives you the right
to tell me what to do
you don't wish to know
about new life or death
you told me quite clearly
in a voice out of breath
now all of a sudden
you think you have the right
to issue instructions
about what i may write
i write for myself
and i'll write what i please
when i ask your permission
that's the day hell will freeze
so take a deep breath
don't read what i write
you've done that before
with apparent delight
you say i am dead
and to you i may be
but i'm writing a tale
which is all about me
you once were my true love
the light of my life
i have no wish to hurt you
my once almost wife
if people should read
if i spoke about you
they would know that i loved
and respected you too
go on with your life
so much less complicated
than that with the poet
you always berated
you have a nice car
and a beautiful home
your cats are still with you
you won't be alone
erase from your memory
the wolf and the boy
go on with your life
seize the moment with joy
what i write does not matter
we live world's apart
if only we'd realized
that right from the start

Copyright © 2011 by Eryll Oellermann

i'm as young

i'm as young

i guess i'm as young
as i let myself be
my heart's been sixteen 
since i knew you loved me


you laughed when i told you
how i race the closing door
two steps at a time
to get up to my floor


you smiled when i mentioned
i tripped in my haste
and ended up falling
embarrassed, red faced


honey, you said
scot's accent included
a six year old does that
you're slightly deluded


how old i am
is really no matter
i love life, i love you
i'm a crazy mad hatter


you make my heart thump
you make my face smile
your love is the magic
which makes life worth while


i thank you my darling
for bringing me pleasure
your smile and your laughter
are my special treasure


i give you my heart
and i give you my time
you gave me yours
i am giving you mine

Copyright © 2011 by Eryll Oellermann

today is mine

in love my heart was chained, a prisoner
with bands of gold and knots unbreakable
until that day, when all the world unravelled
the impossible became possible once more
in one interminable raging moment
with sharp breath, indrawn in haste
that once sweet mouth spewed forth such venom
enough to wake my slumbering sense of self
instead of pain i knew the light of freedom
those unbreakable chains fought loose
knots once so tight, slid free, untied
a prisoner of love no more, i breathed freedom
my heart knew peace, my mind knew calm
today is mine, tomorrow a new destiny waits
my heart free to love, these arms free to embrace
hands which would trace the shadow of your smile
hold you to me in the opportunity of forever


Copyright © 2004-2010 by Eryll Oellermann

a new beginning

holding you is a new beginning
in you i feel the warmth of sunshine
the caress of soft falling rain
my heart for so long abandoned
like a seed fallen on arid ground
unable to absorb the gift of growth
this heart hears your life song
i see, i hear, i feel and i am reborn
in the wonder of your touch

Copyright © 2004-2010 by Eryll Oellermann

in mind and memory

i believe in love and happiness
so why, do i cling like a miser
to keening, loss and misery
because in the sadness, the ache
you still exist, i still hold you
if i were to forget, go on
open myself to the future
i would then lose it all
not only the already vanished
closeness of the physical
in stretching towards a new beginning
i would lose the memory of you
like a wraith you would fade
translucent, leaving my reality
invisibility would cloak our love
this love in time would lie forgotten
i have no need or want for peace
when losing the last of you
is the too precious price to be paid
so i continue to exist
in this timeless place of loss
where longing and regret
hold you warm and familiar
clutched tight to me
still resident, in mind and memory

Copyright © 2004-2010 by Eryll Oellermann

lost in the white

where am i, who am i
why am i here
i'm lost in the white
the deep silence of fear

i find i inhabit
a world without meaning
the dark city beckons
a love song, she's keening

come to me, assuage me
let me swift surround
who needs the world
when the dark has been found


Copyright © 2004-2010 by Eryll Oellermann

times ten

you speak of paraprosdokians and words
times ten
which make them yours for ever
unforgettable you are
a mystery for my solving
and i
whose name you call
times ten
breathe soft and dream
a soon unfolding future
of together


Copyright © 2004-2010 by Eryll Oellermann