six years

six years of together
six years of apart
laughing, childlike
crying, forsaken
stilted conversations
soul cleansing sharing
giggling like toddlers
sulking like teenagers

so many sins
so much forgiveness
parting in anger
separated by silence
reconnected in love
reunited in ecstasy
love in the beginning
love at the end
dreaming of forever
the nightmare of no more

no word will come

i have nothing left but sad
no fire, no power, no words
no pounding need to write
my body feels no more
untouched and unresponsive

soon i must leave
this place of nothing
where my life is wasting
for this is not the way
we are born to be

i long to lift my eyes
and seek the sunlight
i gasp to breath again
to touch and feel
reach out and hold once more

yet my heart cries "wait"
love is patient and forgiving
tomorrow the phone will ring
loves words will tumble
distracted from her lips

my unkind mind sneers
there is no more together
no word will come
no phone will ring
the future is undone

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