in mind and memory

i believe in love and happiness
so why, do i cling like a miser
to keening, loss and misery
because in the sadness, the ache
you still exist, i still hold you
if i were to forget, go on
open myself to the future
i would then lose it all
not only the already vanished
closeness of the physical
in stretching towards a new beginning
i would lose the memory of you
like a wraith you would fade
translucent, leaving my reality
invisibility would cloak our love
this love in time would lie forgotten
i have no need or want for peace
when losing the last of you
is the too precious price to be paid
so i continue to exist
in this timeless place of loss
where longing and regret
hold you warm and familiar
clutched tight to me
still resident, in mind and memory

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